Purpose in life

For many years I went thru my life and felt like I had no purpose. I have been a Christian for many years I have went to church week after week year after year and felt so empty. My life was just a drag. I did not have a personal relationship with Jesus, just those emotional highs that did not last very long. Yes I was saved and yes I was going to heaven. The thing is I just was not letting God in the areas of my life that he need in. I did not want to have to pay the price to have the relationship that God wanted to have with me. The price of staying in Gods word that would be the bible and spending time in prayer. You see I was living my life trying to please other people and I was just not happy. I was living my life full of pride and doing things on my own. With out even give God much thought until church time rolled back around the next Sunday. Really you could not tell any difference in my life outside of church than a none believer. From my actions and my attitude.  You see I wanted a quick fix in my life I wanted God to just bless me real good and make me feel good. With out me having to put forth much effort to maintain a walk with God.  I would get a few goose bumps of Gods glory every now and then. I really just got tired of living that way. I did not want to be the average christian anymore, I wanted to change. Change I wanted but then a lesson came from that as well. Change does not come quick it comes little by little. The day we live in things move so quick. We can get it now with this fast pace life we live most anything any way. The change that comes with God is little by little and day by day. I must say my friend when I made my mind up to really get real with God and quit playing church, my life has be nothing short of Awesome!! It takes effort to have a true relationship with God. I tell you it does not take near the effort it does to struggle every day, every week and every year just dragging thru life.  I  have more of a hunger for God now that I ever have before. I have come to the point I can't wait to spend my one on one time with him everyday. You see my friend He has healed me emotionally taught me how to love and practice self control. I do have to work on these thing everyday and sometimes second by second. You see I want to live my life to Gods standers not mine are anyone else's. The reason I call this Jefferey Maddox Ministries is my life as a child of God is a ministry. I am and representative of God as a born again believer. So my life as a christian is a ministry. You see it's easy to be all christian and good at church or around people your trying to impress. That's not where my fruit comes from "Galatians 5:22" my fruit is what comes out behind close doors. When I am at work at wal-mart at home and in the world every day living my life. How other people see me and how I treat them. I want to be a real man of God!! God really started dealing with me 2 years ago about my relationship with him.  I must say I did not get to the point I am now in a few days. It has taking me the full 2 years to be able to even be able to think in a way that I have described. It really has taken me a life time to get to this point. To the ripe age of 41. My journey with God will take me in this life where ever God wants me to go and do. I have completely given my life to him. I am not perfect and I do and will make mistakes but at least I am not where I used to be. I have had to do things these last two years that has not been easy. I have had to ask people to forgive me  that I had hurt and cut them to the core of there soul. Was that easy nope not at all. I knew if I wanted to move forward with God I had to do what I felt that he was dealing with me to do. I will be sharing more of my journey of my life where God has brought me from. God Bless You!!